Why do I wish to embarrass myself with the sh*t that I write…And on the question of why humans create art.
Over the course of many a Instagram Status rants I have come to realise that I kinda dig writing. Being able to quench my urge to express myself and put it into words to share is like a therapy for me. I feel better inside. Along with my realisation of my knack for writing, a question also came along. “WHY?”
The simplest of the questions yet one that was very hard to answer, personally. Why is it that I love to write. I never had a huge list of followers who read my words and depended on it. Neither do I have a much long history of getting appreciated for whatever I wrote. I wasn’t earning from it either. Yet I wrote. And I have had those voices in my head saying it to me a thousand times over, “BRUH. NO ONE CARES. WHY ARE YOU EVEN WRITING. NO ONE ASKED YOU TO” and I have been let down because of it many a times and quit social media apps altogether. “Write in your god damn notes app.” , “Why do you have to share ?”, “Who’s attention do you seek?” But then every time these voices would eventually quiet themselves up and I’d get to it again. The urge to vomit words on the screen always won somehow. Even if I have to risk making a fool out of myself, I’d still do it. But, Why ?
The question arose in my mind so many times that it was granted the green-card to United States of My Brain and had become a permanent resident there.
The next few paragraphs try to convey any/some answer to it. I’m sharing this with you all because I somewhere feel it not only relates to just me or just writing specifically but it could be looked at from a more general perspective as to why do we humans create anything in the periphery of what we call ‘art’…and maybe could help someone out there reading this who also wonders the same.
As someone who wants to write something good, the biggest goal of it all is to connect with the reader in some way. To bring a slightest movement in your body, your state of being, your brain. To get some neurons firing and create something that your conscience tangles and mingles with. This little affair between your conscience and my words is all I ever seek from my typing. LOVER VIBES lol. The idea of taking hold of your being and taking it on a ride somehow fills me with joy.
MOVING, SHAKING, DANCING, TREMBLING, VIOLENT HEAD BANGING! SOMETHING, ANYTHING…THAT SHAKES THINGS UP IN YOU even if by a little.
To connect to you, from being present in the light of the pixel that’s emanating from your screen to being read loudly and clearly in your head. Yeah, I’m talking about the voice in your head that’s reading this.
Woooooooooo…..
MIC TEST 123. MIC TEST.
Yup that voice. It seems magical to me. You’ll say it’s YOUR voice in YOUR head that’s reading this but well…these words they’re are mine. I’m in YOUR head. ;)
FREAKking lit (literally), isn’t it. The sensations that I just made in your brain by some LEDs blinking on a piece of Metal. This weird connection that I hope might’ve put a smile on your face is something that any writer yearns for. I’m not only a mere human that exists physically anymore, but my existence has been left all over in parts of brain of my reader. I’m alive as long as my words find place in someone’s psyche.
“ के मरके के भी किसी को याद आएँगे, किसी के आंसुओं में मुस्कुराएँगे, कहेगा फूल हर कलीसे बार बार, जीना ईसी का नाम है।”
Humans are social animals they taught us. We were born all alone and we will die all alone too. But to live alone or be the only human alive throughout our life would be daunting for most of us. It’s in our DNA to connect with other humans and we have over the centuries found many a ways to ‘connect’. Art is anything that signifies this connection. Every human tries to find a way to connect with others and woo this loneliness away. That’s all what it is. Amazingly simple yet insanely essential.
This connection exists in all forms of expression I believe. And if you seek to create something that you name-tag as ‘art’ it should do just that. Create a connection..
I’m bad at conclusions. Draw one on your own 😅
Fin.
ps, a huge thanks to Vismay Agarwal. Some ideas are inspired by his articles on Medium.